life improvement skills

Maybe it's the fact that it's a new year and it's only January. Not too late to start again. Maybe it's because I'm 20 and realising I need to start getting serious. Maybe it's just because I'm fed-up. In any case, I've decided I need a change.
I'm sick of it. I'm bored. I hate what I'm turning into.
I'm 20. It's time to grow up.
I'm sick of going to a new town every couple months just to start over again. And for what? I have nothing to show for it. I haven't seen any of europe except France. Haven't seen any of England except London, Brighton, York and Edinburgh. I haven't save d a penny (I literally have £2.50 to my name at the moment...but should be getting paid today). I'm supposed to be travelling. I'm supposed to see the world. I'm supposed to be having fun. Well, I am having fun. I'm having too much fun which has become part of the problem. I hate the patterns I've began falling into.
This is a day in the life of Mix as she is in Edinburgh: Wake up around 2-3pm. sit in lounge at jif's (where I'm currently staying until I get paid). Smoke a few joints. Maybe a cigarette *(if there's drinking involved). Spend the night either in the lounge (again smoking j's) or getting drunk/experimenting with various other drugs. Stay awake until 3-4am and then pass out on teh couch in the lounge. Wake up at 3 the next arvoandstart over again.
There's too many smokers. If you came close enough to smell me, you'd think I'd been a pack-a-day for years. The truth is, I don't smoke. Well...now that I'm here, I'm falling into the "smoke with a beer habit"...not good. Luckily, I'm not an addictive personality otherwise, I'm sure I would be a habitual smoker by now.
I feel unhealthy. I'm sick of eating ready meals because I can't be bothered to cook. Running to the shop when I'm hungry instead of a kitchen.
Sick of city life.
Missin the home life.
So, this weekend, I will make my decision. Although, I think I've already made it.
I've made a list.

Ways Mix will change and improve her life and hopefully mature:
1. Head home to Roberts Creek, British Comlumbia, Canada
2. Get a job
3. work work work work work
4. Make some money money money
5. Join a gym
6. Get my drivers licence
7. Buy a digital camera
8. buy a ticket to Australia
9. GET MY FUCKING LIFE TOGETHER

So in conclusion, I think I'm heading home.
I'll come back to Europe on a later date when I have money and don't have to work.

Looking forward to seeing my mum. Is that weird?